Life has its unique way of surprising us. Through either the various struggles, pain, heartbreak, rejection, or self-doubt, we all have moments where we question our worth. What I may have seen as obstacles in the past, I now see as steppingstones leading me to a deeper understanding of myself. It took me plenty of years to understand this and let me tell you, somedays it still is not easy.
Finding your self-worth should not mean you have to avoid the pain from your story or try to be someone else. I wish someone would have told me this exact thing many years back. I spent plenty of my early years questioning everything about myself when I came across failure, pain, and disappointment. I wanted to be perfect in every way possible as I thought this is what would bring me that happiness I passionately sought.
Through my journey, I have met wonderful people, but the one person I truly met deeply and grew to love was myself. Does that mean I reached perfection? Absolutely NOT!! I simply understood that all my failures, my wrong choices, the pain of losing both my parents, the physical and emotional abuse experienced on various occasions, the struggle of raising my three kids on my own, all the dark places my mind went to were and are all an opportunity to keep growing within my own self.
One of my major goals is to connect with other people who have been through similar situations as I did in the past or who are currently going through them. I remember years ago, sitting next to my three children in our dark apartment. I had no money to pay the electric bill and was waiting for my paycheck to be deposited at midnight. Seeing my children’s faces full of despair and at the same time they tell me that everything was going to be okay. I was THE adult there of course but they had no idea how much strength they were giving me during those hard moments. Could I be more of a failure- I thought. It was then that I told myself that I would one day share my stories and try to help others.
I have had this passion grow within my heart for many years, I just did not know where to start or even if I would ever be good at sharing all my painful stories BUT thankfully to my support system; I finally decided to take the risk alongside my soul sister- Mally. Together we want to open our hearts to our audience and listeners. We do not promise to be any good at this, but we do promise to share, listen, laugh, cry etc. alongside all of you.
This space is for you, for us-to heal, to grow, and to find strength in our struggles. Let us walk along this path together.
Truly yours,
Vera Aguayo